3day 2nights at genting...

It has been at least 6months since i last updated my blog,there has been many changes in my life,lots of ups and downs....quited the shell station job and in the end help out my friend at his bubble tea shop lol....




I went genting on dec to find her cos it has been 6 months since we last seen each other,i miss her lots and even dreamt about her once.

When i reached genting it was still 4am in the morning...can't check in the hotel till 12pm so i have to wander around then i decided to scout the place as i had not been up at genting for a very very long time.

It was 10:45am and she reached the lobby,tried to go get a payphone to call her it was then i felt someone hold my hand from behind,i turned around and i saw her..with her sweet eyes and blushy cheeks she smiled at me and asked "where are you going?".It was a feeling moment for me so i just hold her in my arms and said "noting" then we went to try check in the hotel.

The 1st day was a very tiring day for me as i had yet to have any rest we mearly exchange gifts and cards during our lunch,i gave her a gold necklace and a magnum thumb drive for her present i hope she like it the 2nd day i had movies with her and we took a stroll in the park at night.It was momentarous,at night in the thunder clouds at the park chatting with the one who speaks my heart,i almost felt i reached nirvana.





Every meeting there is a parting,on the 3rd day it was sad that i have to leave her again but i was sure she will soon be by my side again.I went to the bus station with my bags and and took the ride back home thinking about the events that took place and soon taking a deep slumber in it...

Emo nights*

Today officially started work le,before hand is all training only.I hope i really earn and save enough for lao por to come back and lead a happy life with her,don't want her to suffer.

Working at amk shell station today so so tiring...and suay.1st day they hand over station to my uncle and so many things happened,1st the fuse box go crazy and made a loud noise then the lights got problem,followed by the petrol can't pump until few hours later and if things is not bad enough the nets machine on the counter that i'm handling suddenly can't connect to my computer screen and a car can actually have an accident with a taxi in my station!!

Everything just went haywire omg!then heavy rain,big thunder like trying to warn me something,worse still,my collegue got kick out of his rented house so he have no place to stay and i have to help him find the blk of his female cousin -_-"

Then reach home something funny happened the lights in the kitchen also went berserk when i swtiched it on.Keep on blinking non stop but when other people in my family go on the kitchen light noting funny happen,it just remain normal kauz!



Everything that happen today is too much of a coincidence even the mechanic also say the petrol can't pump is so rare that it never happen in his whole life of this career!Something is wrong,and is very very wrong today.

My lao por was just caught red handed by me for flirting with other guys and i'm so emo then today so much things happened...haiz...i was upset by still love her lots and pray she will be safe as i will be.She keep insisting she never did flirt but what she is doing is not call flirting i don't know what else is le.Now i don't want think too much just want to earn enough and just hope she will come back soon in singapore and we get married.That's the only thing that is keeping me going now...haiz

Lover's night....

Went to ipoh again go look for my lao por cause wanted to be the 1st person and the last one to celebrate valentines with her and make her happy so at least she go england we still have sweet memories to remember...i even bought something for her ^_^



I reach there early morning and no one is there to fetch me so sad!haha but no choice also some1 is sleeping lor,have to wait till 7am then can check in hotel.Then 1st thing when she came into the hotel we kissed and hug (hehe) so sweet,then i tekan her and put 'something' on her face,she was like AHH!!!! wahahahaha i so bad. >.<



After that she go visit her dad while i sleep in my hotel room...when she come back we go shopping and have dinner,it was all so sweet...we went back to the hotel and took alot of pics so at least when she go england we still can look at it and think of all our memories...sobz*



Good times flies,the next day i have to go back singapore to work already and it felt though she can't let go when i'm parting...love her so...i missed her alot and even now as i typed my words i am still thinking of her and looking at our photos...i just hope she will be always safe and sound and that time flies to the end so i have her in my arms again...



Already started work and keep getting injuring myself without even realizing it lol dont even know where all the cuts and abrasion come from,and worse i even had a heat rash on my chest cause the weather so hot and i keep sweating now so tired...but i have to hold on so by then when she come back at least i have some results to show her and not to have her marry a broke and lousy guy...i want her to be proud of me and proud of having me that other people can't get.

One night in ipoh wo liu sia le xu duo qing...lol

Went to ipoh with eric to visit my lao por before she go england was so so excited.I reached there waiting impatiently for her to appear in front of me and her friend drove her there.When i saw her she was so shy and i just hug her immediately ^_^



We checked into a hotel,it was so nice n cheap the hotel but the bed is so small -_-" we went to the ktv,shopping,lan shop then eat so many food that i missed over there then took alot of photos haha.Time is very fufilling over there and how i wished i had more of it with her there...




When i was on the bus returning to singapore,a sudden remorse came over me,i look at our photos and my tears almost came down from my eye...i told myself i had to be stronger and held it back and i can't show eric i'm weak too but deep down inside i was very emotional trying to substain my feelings.She wrote me a letter of promise and i will be waiting for her safe arrival back in singapore...i miss my wife sobz...

Am i going nuts again?or is it just the lonely night?

I was outside just now at serangoon garden with oger and i came across a few old friends at different times and one of them actually mentioned of a name that sparks my rage.His name is jun hong,that bastard use my IC to borrow $ from ah long and fleed without me even knowing he did that!wa lauz!

I that time only ask him help me take back my IC from the lan shop and he instead go and use it to borrow from loan shark!oh my god!what kind of friend is that?!hate him so much that i want to tear him to pieces now...but anyway it's over already since last year -_-" but still he better not let me see him else i really don't know what i will do if i can't control myself.

The last time i can't control my rage,i think i almost killed someone lol (must control...must be calm...).I just came home just now and forgot to bring my keys lol i had to call my mum to wake her up and open the door for me so suay -_-"



These few days like so emo,today only got four red packets,then keep on like got issues with lao por...feel like she don't love me or she got another one more guy outside with her that she won't let me know...so sad now...is it just me?or could it be all the things is my imagination that my lao por treated me coldly?or is it that what is happening to me makes me so stressed up and cause me to fear so much?

I think i'm going nuts le maybe is the night that makes me think too much also...haiz...whatever the case i am really low in confidence with myself.If there is a day that lao por don't want me already or really have an affair i would choose to keep quiet and move on...i got to be stronger,wiser,better then ever to make sure i'm desired and not rejected to keep me moving...

Stars in the night...

I was walking back home just now,looking up at the stars...wondering if my lao por is looking at it too...i miss her so much.So depressed now...out of job,the person i love is not around,still don't like to stay with my family,emo.The only thing i have left now is my friends haiz...don't know how long i can hold on anymore...



Just now call my lao por so many times she never answer call,sms her also never reply...the last time i receive her sms is 23:14 so worried what happen to her now till i don't even dare to sleep.Now time is 6:57 i will be waiting till she sms me else i really scared what happened to her.cry*

Midnight memories

Asked sheena for help on editing my pics,although i added them together myself already on microsoft but i cant convert it from document to pictures -_-" .So have to consult the pro lor lol, after that she help me convert it in 15 mins time lol.I really appreciate the help thanks else later my lao por sure complain to me i nvr do it for her de,come back that time i die die le -_-".

Looking at our pics really bring memories...still can remember how we started...i met her downstairs her house den i was on the phone with a customer of mine and was smoking...she gave me the -.-" look lol...after that i ask her where is the nearest atm and she brought me there but atm out of service is so funny the situation haha.

We took a cab down to take a stroll after that and ask the driver where is the nearest beach then he said he don't know i was like wa lauz dotz,eventually we decided to go east coast and during the trip,she is so so shy can even see that she is slightly shocked when i hug her lol,she got comfortable with it after awhile...

The memories with her is beautiful,how i wish i could have more of it but i can't sobz...still i will be patiently waiting for her arrival back in singapore and hug me saying 'i miss u'.love u lao por...please remember your promise,i will be waiting...

NIght of the living dead!

Playing L4D at eric's house and trying out advance mode for the 1st time,it's seriously very challenging comparing to the previous modes and i really started to hate tank alot after today's experience.The tanker can really do some serious havoc to the players making the game most of the time so dotz -_-"


TANKER


The game play of L4D is very interesting as although the gameplay can be very simple especially the controls but at the same time the AI is really smart.It's as though they knew exactly what makes the player go bonkers lol they are even better then alot of players in a manner of speaking making the game so human.

I made my lao por upset and hopes that she forgives me -_- if she don't forgive me she will sure like the zombie 'tanker' come after me and then i die die lo lol.I like to think that i love her alot till i scare lose her, or that she has any guys she might suddenly like that's why i'm so upseted by the event that happened yesterday.

I neglected to understand her feelings and situation.what i actually should have known is that she really loves me and is really afraid of losing me too...she also told me she never treated anyone like this before or even worry about her bf till like that before...i made her scared till she cried but she never tell me only..haiz i'm such a failure as a bf -_-"

Nightwalkers...

Oger and me was going out just now exchanging opinions and point of views about life and career,he was depressed cos he will be moving to chua chu kang soon which is like so far from hougang to start his new life and career.

He wanted to start and venture his business in the food industry over there and was saying he wanted to meet more often with me else,next time it wont be easy cos of the distance and he will be quite busy.

I do realize it will be hard on him as he has to help on supporting his brother to study and to support his mum as well being the only guy left in the family.It will be especially harder for him with no one to support him there and he dont even have much friends.

we chatted on the topic of understanding girls and his opinion is really hardly in my point of view and i guess he really has much to emphasize on when it comes to having a girl friend or pursuing after one,although regrettably i can't help him much i still wish him all the best.

Time now is 05:34 in the morning,i'm missing my lao por so much...a drop of tear rolled down my eye in the evening when i was listening to music and thinking of her,at the same time while lying on my bed,how i wish she was there to lie on my shoulder like she used to or holding my hands and say she love me...

Another night again....

Was outside in a park chatting with nick noting to do also...he ask me to go sentosa camping and go taiwan hiking with him lol but told me to bring girls with him also dotz... -_-".

I told him i have to become 'monk' for a year cos waiting for my lao por to come back from england and he ask me i intend to marry her is it?I was like "Huh how you know?" then he ask me if she is really worth it and i said "yes" cause she is really sweet and i love her...then he gave me the -_-" face lol

I really am very worried about her...sobz and missing her so much how i wish i can see her now...We had an oath and she promised to come back look for me to fufill it de...i really wish it will come true,don't wish to cry again...