Am i going nuts again?or is it just the lonely night?

I was outside just now at serangoon garden with oger and i came across a few old friends at different times and one of them actually mentioned of a name that sparks my rage.His name is jun hong,that bastard use my IC to borrow $ from ah long and fleed without me even knowing he did that!wa lauz!

I that time only ask him help me take back my IC from the lan shop and he instead go and use it to borrow from loan shark!oh my god!what kind of friend is that?!hate him so much that i want to tear him to pieces now...but anyway it's over already since last year -_-" but still he better not let me see him else i really don't know what i will do if i can't control myself.

The last time i can't control my rage,i think i almost killed someone lol (must control...must be calm...).I just came home just now and forgot to bring my keys lol i had to call my mum to wake her up and open the door for me so suay -_-"



These few days like so emo,today only got four red packets,then keep on like got issues with lao por...feel like she don't love me or she got another one more guy outside with her that she won't let me know...so sad now...is it just me?or could it be all the things is my imagination that my lao por treated me coldly?or is it that what is happening to me makes me so stressed up and cause me to fear so much?

I think i'm going nuts le maybe is the night that makes me think too much also...haiz...whatever the case i am really low in confidence with myself.If there is a day that lao por don't want me already or really have an affair i would choose to keep quiet and move on...i got to be stronger,wiser,better then ever to make sure i'm desired and not rejected to keep me moving...